Week 16

Another week has FLOWN by! This week so super exciting because I felt my little baby moving all around!! It literally feels like a little spider crawling quickly on the inside. Or a matchbox car rolling on the inside. It is very fast and I have to sit and concentrate to really feel it. So OF COURSE I tested what it responds to.. Wednesday night I played worship music right next to my belly and it was going 90 to nothing! BIG SMILES! It makes me laugh being able to feel it- it kinda tickles. :-) Makes me understand love so much more.

Ya know when you've been dreaming about something for so long and then when it happens it's just unbelievable. That's me everyday right now. Me and Brad went on our first vacation by ourselves when we were 19. We went to Destin,FL and stayed at a Motel 6 across from the beach. We purposefully went down to the beach and put our stuff near a bunch of families and began to dream of our own future family. As kids ran around us we would hear their parents yelling their names and we would comment on whether we liked their name or not. We talked about the "rules" we would set for our kids and how we would plan financially for their lives. Between 19 and 24 I have seen so many precious babies come into this world. I have been so fortunate to be a part of their lives and know them from belly to birth to chasing them around. I am slightly obsessed with pregnant women. I am the annoying person that wants to touch the belly and feel that little life kicking around. It never gets old and it always leaves me in amazement.

Since I am always the first one to run up to a pregnant lady and ask if I can feel- I owe it to the world to be a petting zoo. Open 24 hours a day. It is a little weird people touching your belly. This is my formal apology to all the precious pregnant women I have harrassed. Thank you for not kicking my butt. Your stomach is a sensitive place especially when it's growing. I can't really tell if I have a bump yet or if I need to lay off the Sweettarts (fave). It's a hard bump so I'll say it's baby not mommy. B laughs at me rubbing my belly all the time. Instead of a glowing pregnant woman adoring her tummy I look like an old man rubbin his beerbelly with delight. I don't care :) I'm pregnant and pokin it out! I'm just monitoring when B might be able to feel the first kick.

and it just feels funny to have a belly that pokes out but feels like a 6 pack. <----real reason

This little life growing inside of me is just bizzaro to me. I don't think I ever really believed that this would be given to me. I am not good enough for this gift-- which reminds me that none of us are or ever will be. Every day is a gift from God. Every breath, every safe ride home, every good nights sleep. We don't deserve any of it but praise God instead that He sent His son so that we never have to EARN His love.. All we have to do is accept it. Easter has become one of my favorite celebrations as I have gotten older. I love the time up to Easter especially just being 2 weeks away. I wonder what Jesus was thinking about this time. I wonder if He was able to grasp the weight of what His Father was asking of Him and what it would mean for generations to come. I wonder if He knew the pain He would have to endure being nailed to the cross to suffer for our sins so that we would not have to know eternal separation. All I can do is praise Him for doing it for me so that I would not have to. His love is unimaginablely big.

Symptoms at 16 weeks::
Frequent trips to the potty. Hiccups (constantly, for a couple of months now). Emotional as all get out (literally broke down during a commercial this week in tears)

I like to move it, move it...
Little baby is a squirmy thing! favorite time to move around is after food and about 10:30 pm. Like I said it is very light but at the same time very distinct- I can't wait to see on ultrasound which movements match up to which limbs.

Prayers
We have been so grateful this week for some answered prayers- God is good. He is good. We continue to pray for little baby's well being and growth. and OH SO grateful for its squirmy-ness. Our house is on the market and we know God is going to pick out the perfect family for our home if it is His will. If not- our home will continue to be our home. Very grateful that while we would love to move to a neighborhood, there is nothing wrong with our house and it suits us just fine for as long as the Lord has us here. I'm thankful that we need Him. There are so many changes going on and many that are out of our control-- perfect time to allow the all powerful merciful Father take the reins. As much as I would like to sit and plan (aka worry) our life right now, I've got a feeling His plan is much bigger and better.