Week 17

Happy Palm Sunday! Today baby was not so active-- until we started listening to worship music and now we're jammin :-) baby after my own heart<3 We had some answered prayers this week.. not exactly the answers we wanted but we are trusting and believing that God's got this! My first reaction when I don't get what I want is "ok God must have something else out there" and for like a day I can hold onto that and believe it with every inch of my heart... and then this "planning" side of me intrudes and takes over my thoughts and ruins the peace in my heart. See I would love to say I'm one of those people who loves the journey as much as the ending-- but I am impatient and fall short of this. I am that girl that gets into a book and starts planning out MY ending and checks the back to make sure it ends the way I want it to. And normally I don't go back and read the five chapters I missed.
It's something that I'm working on. Don't really have a choice in real life. I know my ultimate ending-- and oh man I praise God for allowing us the security and hope in all that heaven promises. It is what allows me to realize any worry I have has an ending and it is not worth losing daylight over.
And besides that beautiful truth-- this little road we're traveling would not be as exciting if we slept through the years of prayer and doctor's visits and praising Him through it all and had our little bundle of joy when we woke up. (cannot wait!) Besides how my faith has changed over the past two years, praying over this squirmy thing constantly, the people that have shared their pregnancy stories with me have changed me. Some have made me feel so small and stupid for feeling sorry for myself and others I have been able to relate to 100%. But most of all, the ladies that have opened their hearts to me have given me hope. They've made me realize we all have a journey just like we all have an ending.
All that dramatic-ness to say-- me and baby and B are fine. We are praying for where the Lord would have us. It brings tears to my eyes knowing that one day I can look at this blog and be thankful for this time of prayer and need for His presence.
OK- so other than THAT, we had a good week! More blessed than we deserve! Daddy (ah!) started reading to baby One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue Fish by Dr. Seuss.

Um we got half way through the book and (64 page long children's book) mommy had to go to bed. Baby is probably hanging on the edge of its seat wanting to know the ending. *sorry*
I don't know if it's hormones or what but my sense of humor is getting a little out of hand. I'm laughing uncontrollably at stupid stuff. B thinks its hilarious and often tells me to calm down :) Oh how I wish he knew what it was like to be out of control of emotions. I mean I already laughed at anything and everything- I'm that girl that laughs at the teachers jokes and laughs hysterically during a funny at church. This isn't just a haha it's like getting tickled to tears and not being able to breathe (poor baby). I don't know maybe I'm just loosening up--or delirious (I think it's funny of course).
Most asked Question..... SO how are you feeling?
I feel like I am making a pretty awesome human! (to all you newly married folks- how tired are you hearing "SO how's married life") I'm going to start coming up with creative answers. Because nobody wants to hear the real answer...
- I feel like me and the potty are BFF.
- You smell terrible, please get away. faster
- Are you going to eat that?
jk but seriously. I am feeling like the luckiest person on the planet. I feel like God is too good to me. I feel like this is getting too emotional. It is both overwhelming and scary but beautiful and amazing. "My Chains are Gone" is on Pandora right this second and just has me thinking how overwhelming and scary but beautiful and amazing the Cross is. NOT THAT I AM COMPARING MYSELF TO JESUS!!!!!!!! literally typed that out as the song came on- and its just weird I mean how something so huge can have such opposite emotions and descriptions.
Cravings?
Me or the baby? If it weren't for low blood sugar and headaches I think I could not eat for a while. I don't want to say that I am ready for my appetite to be completely back because I am SUPER scared of gaining an ungodly amount of weight. So far haven't gained anything- just weight shifting to different areas. My mom gained a whopping 70 pounds with me- THAT IS NOT A TYPO. I was her first and... I don't know what happened- she obviously never experienced morning sickness. Bless her- she was still tiny. I would take up two zip codes. But my little baby LOVES some cheese. Especially cheese dip. (or maybe that's what I eat most)
Changes?
Well I thought my bump was growing and then like magically over the past 2 days- I got nothin. I guess the bloating is over. One day I might have some bump pics.. can't decide how I feel about being photographed but maybe it will be motivation to dress like a person and not a slob.
So thankful for this week and praying that the Lord uses us next week. Remember Easter is next Sunday! If you don't attend a church and would like to we go to Church of the Highlands and would love to share in this Easter weekend! I think we are going to go Friday night. I know it will be emotional and life changing. Praying for lives to be changed and God's grace to reach more lost people than ever before.
Celebrate New Life!!!!